What is LOVE?

Recently, my friend told me she was asked by her friend the question - what do you think is love???

When she met me, she told me about it and asked me - what is love to you? (or something to that effect).

Errrrrrr... I really don't know! I am a retard when it comes to this kind of question. The best that I can came up with...

....love, to me, is not a fixed thing or feeling... it is suppose to change (logic here is, we change so must our defination of love) as we change, it should not be static but dynamic instead....

BUT ACTUALLY, THE REAL TRUTH IS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT HECK IS LOVE!

However, since I'm sure I'm not the only retard when it comes to love, they should offer this as a course in school/college/unive rsity! This can be categorised under "life survival skill" (me think).

What's happening today?

Not much for me today, thanks for wondering (yeah right!), but....

Today I realise that.........


I AM HAVING A TERRIBLE WITHDRAWL SYMPTOMS

FROM NOT HAVING MY OWN WORKING LAPTOP.

.... and that kinda give me a headache now!!!!

MERRY XMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR

I would like to wish everybody a MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006.

May your 2006 filled with lots of love, good health and peace.

(illustration is courtesy of my friend nekbat)


p/s... I am also back on my other blog site.

Of Kenduri Kahwin

What comes to mind when you think of weddings????

For me, firstly...chaos comes to mind. Lets face it, weddings are chaotic events. Have you ever been involved in one where every single thing went smoothly??? I went to 2 end of Nov/early Dec and both were chaotic.

The first one ended up with me having to do a bit of washing dishes, serving drinks, decorate the main table and moulding wajik for the bunga pahar (yeah... like I am very experienced lah! Somebody shoot me!!). I'm actually not complaining about having to do all those, but just reminding myself that I have yet to experience chaos free events. Something somehow will come up, goes missing, not going on time, diverted from plan, etc.

The second thing that comes to mind is reunion. Be it with distance relatives, old neighbours, long lost friends, etc. The other wedding I went to was my old neighbour's son's. Despite the heavy downpours on the day, it was an enjoyable one. I met almost everyone of the neighbour's children and had a quick catch up with them (eg. which kid is whose). What followed afterwards was warm feeling while my mind went down the memory lanes of childhood with them (but that could be another story).

However, I noticed that this time around, people somehow have stopped asking THE common questions - "how many kids" or "which one is your husband" or "are you married now". Those that kinda know me would just say..."oh look...that is so and so... and he (either bujang tua or duda) is looking for a wife" and then proceed to give me a long (dirty) look.

I wonder sometimes whether there is a visible word of "i'm single, get me any man" engraved on my forehead, which is only invisible to me????

Maybe that's the price of freedom (for both freedom by choice and freedom because of no choice). Who knows.

Dedicated to the one I love... part 1

Yes... I am angry at you still! Can't you tell.

Because I still remember... Not only you cut my hair yourself instead of sending me for proper grooming, but I'm also angry at what you did to me recently. Oh... you also cut most of my right side whiskers!!!

You don't remember??? Let me refresh your mind. Can you see why I'm angry...grrrrr. How could you??? I hate bathing!

And I can't believe you're telling everybody about it.

Leave me alone lah....

Can I Borrow Your Book(s)?

I promised myself that I would spend more of my free time reading decent literatures. But often enough, when you have more free time on your hand, it means your pocket is in a sad poor state! Therefore, I am not reading as much as I wanted to (yeah...like this country has no public library).

If any of my friends reading this have any good books to lend, do let me know. I am more than willing to lend you mine. Here is my book list currently available:

• The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
• The Time Traveler's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
• Weekend in Paris - Robyn Sisman (an ok lah book)
• Sons of Fortune - Jeffrey Archer
• Let's Meet on Platform 8 & A Whiff of Scandal - Carole Matthews (a so-so book)
• Devil Wears Prada - Lauren Weisberger (p/s I no like this one!)
• Paddy Clarke Ha Ha Ha - Roddy Doyle (an old book)
• A Hooded Crow - Craig Thomas (old book but good story)
• The Cardinal Sins - Andrew M. Greeley (a very old book)
• Sam The Cat - Matthew Klam (a boring book)
• The Tenth Insight - James Redfield (confusing for me)

I also have other self help books, but I better not list them down here...(heh heh heh). You can ask me if you're curious!

By the way, anybody has Da Vincci Code?

Cooking and Single Woman

I had a lunch invitation for decent home cooked meal at my friend's house (her mom's actually) on Tuesday. Of course, I am never known to turn down such makan invitation, unless there's something really urgent that I can't get out from or the company is one that I do not wish to spend time with.

Lunch was good - ulam celur with power sambal belacan (first time I had daun mengkudu celur... and man!!!! it was so bitter that I almost cry), ikan kerisi (me think only lah) goreng berlada, kari nangka, kari ikan, taugeh goreng and bak choy gorent sos tiram... The lauk certainly deserve a big hearty burp afterwards!!! Oh... also got papadom!!! *BURP*

I don't think the host/cook realised how wonderful lunch there was for me!!!

For single person like me, cooking decent food at home poses a number of problems. The following facts apply:

1. Often enough, we can't cook typical malay dishes (probably due to lack of practice). My attempts at cooking these dishes normally ended up in the rubbish bin (read - not fit for human consumption). Besides, it is simply impossible to get decent recipies for traditional dishes with proper measurements. If you have come accross one, do share!

2. It is not economical to cook decent traditional lauk. Once I had a go at Masak Lemak Ikan Masin with Nenas, it cost me over RM25 just to get it cooked... and believe me, the taste at the nasi campur stall is much nicer in any given day! I was cooking for 3 other people and spend nearly 2 hours in the kitchen. Looking back.. probably cheaper to belanja them makan at our regular nasi campur joint. At least the taste is guaranteed.

3. The washing up afterwards is just not worth it. The amount of time you cook then add the amount of time you have to clean up the kitchen and wash the pots, pans, batu lesung, blender, etc.. just not worth the effort. Plus, you also waste on washing liquid and water... and bad for your nails!

4. Most importantly, single people who can't cook contribute more to the economy and society. We provide good business to the hawkers and restaurenters. Lets each contribute to the society and economy the best way we know of.

Meanwhile, this month of Syawal also see me eating leftover kuih raya for breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper!

Que sera... sera

On Modblog site today:
Update (11/22/05 @ 7:11PM CT): The ModBlog file server has returned online. We are performing necessary maintenance on the server now. Once this process is complete, ModBlog will return online.

Me think - ahhhh...whatever! As long as my cat still gives me a message (by the way, I had my shoulder massaged this morning...purrrrr), I am happy. The withdrawl symptoms of not able to blog on Modblog have dissapears sometimes ago.

I do wonder though how many blog migrations have taken place in this past week from Modblog...

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh

From Modblog site:

Update (11/22/05 @ 12:17AM CT): We are very, very sorry for the extended delay. Unfortunately, the person that is capable of repairing the problem was traveling over the weekend, and was unable to tend to the problem. We are now working as fast as possible to put ModBlog back online, and that should happen very soon. Frequent updates will follow this post until ModBlog is fully back online.

Update (11/17/05 @ 4:30AM CT): ModBlog will return online later today. We greatly apologize for ModBlog's downtime, and we are taking steps to ensure that this cause will not be an issue in the future. Complete details regarding ModBlog's downtime will be posted once it re-opens. We truly appreciate your patience, and we look forward to seeing you back at ModBlog!

Me think:

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh

On a lighter note - my cat gave me a face massage for about 10 minutes. I swear!!!! The best face massage ever!

Decision! Decision!! Decision!!!

I have been told a few times this week that "my cat" needs to be neutered. He is (roughly) over 4 months old now and by 6 months, I have to decide.

My first thought on this matter is... poor baby! I don't have the heart to decide on him loosing his "cathood"! That would be (in my opinion) humanly cruel. But then again, he is a cat. Today I had a cat chat with these 2 owners of pet shop near my place. One of them told me better decide soon as it might be hard for him to "behave" once he has had a go at mating.

Many people told me it is very humanly fair and safe to get the cat castrated. Hmmm... I have to think harder. Last week I told my brother to have a lookout for a female companion for my cat, which till today has no name yet.

At his babysitter (or is it cat sitter), they called him Kemek (he's a flat faced russian persian). The Mak Cik there called him Kemet. My brother refers to him as Comot (he's white and the flat face doesn't help him with face grooming). One of the pet shop owner asked me to name him Vodka (and for his future girlfriend to be named Caviar...hmmm). My brother's neigbour's son called him Jackpot.

I am still undecided. But in the meantime I call him Mee Oww (imitating his first kitten voice). At one point, I was thinking of RM.. short for Ricky Martin, but that name somehow doesn't fit him (why?.. I don't know really).

Maybe I should have a contest on "Name My Cat". And the winner shall have the pleasure of spending a few days babysitting him.... or a romantic dinner with him at my place... heh heh heh.

Addictive Additives

I had KFC burger and cheezy wedges for brunch today. The burger was a bit yucky (a piece of chicken stuck in between 2 burger buns... MacDonald's cheeseburger...now, that's the real fast food burger!) but the potato wedges was yummy (in my humble opinion). It was not fantastically yummy, but more like addictive yummy. Perhaps it taste good due to the combination of the food preservatives and artifical flavouring.

But whatever it is, I seriously think that whoever responsible should change the word additives to ADDICTIVES on the food label!!! You don't know what exactly they put in there but you know what it does to you after eating it.

Enough is enough

Today I spent more times looking at this blog and decided to move/duplicate my blog to this site.

Modblog has been down for the second time! I like it there but disruptions are not something that you welcome often. What a girl to do when faced with this situation!

So, today, here I am... on blogger site!

The Joy of Living Alone

1. I pile my dirty dishes until I filled both of my kitchen sink. My real reason for that is to safe my water consumption. Besides.... I can't be bothered nagging at/to myself. Besides, that would be silly.
2. My spare/guest room is also my laundry room. I wash clothes. When they are dried, I dump them on the 2 super single bed so that I could use the drying line again. Hey, I have to maximise the use of those beds! The matresses cost a bomb.
3. I watch tv, have my meals, do my work/reading and also sleep at the same place... that is... my lovely couch. I always nag at my niece and nephews about the bad habit of eating in front of the tv and not at the proper place.. i.e. dining table. Well, I figure that since they are not watching, I can't be setting a bad example for them, can I? I am such a responsible aunty! (I don't have a proper dining table anyway)
4. I don't have to clean the place if I don't feel like it. Its just me, myself and I staying there. I see the same thing everyday, and after a while your eyes just get adjusted to whatever!
5. I don't have to clean my bathroom that often. All I need to do is to make sure that I don't dirty the place! Besides, who cares. I don't have problem with it, and I'm a regular user! If you have problem with it... get a life then! What's the point of worrying about something that is not yours.
6. I get full control of the tv remote, which is good as I do not have pay tv at home! So, I get to entertain myself by flipping channels when there's nothing good to watch on tv. It beats starring at the same screen. Channel flipping is an interesting activties...
7. When there's nothing to watch, you can just let the tv watches you while you sleep on the couch! Just bring your favourite pillow and blanket.. so you don't have to move about so much when you decide to just close your eyes and sleep!! I luv it!!! More chance to maximise the use of my 3-seat sofa.

I think I better stop rambling. Instead, I should try to think of good stuff that comes from not living alone.....

Lets see..... hmmmm...............

My Night Affairs

It's nearly 3.00 am here and I'm yawning hard. I think my brain cells gets depleted from sniffing oil paint tonight, .... and I'm thoughtless now (but fear not, this is quite common for me.. hahahaha).

At around 1.30 am after watching Meet the Parents reality show, I decided that it was a good time to start painting the shelves I bought from Ikea for the guest bedroom. So while most of the citizens of KL was asleep, I was happily painting on my balcony in semi darkness.

I just don't know how to explain... but I find doing chores at night soothes me. Like night gardening which I like to do as well. I can't explain why I just get bloody efficient and productive at night (my night = past midnight). Not only I love night gardening, but my plants also grow better!

Maybe its the cool weather, maybe its the darkenss where I feel invisible, or maybe my body clock hasn't adjusted even after 35 years.

You see... according to my birth certificate, I was born at 8.45 pm.. and it was at night with full moon! I think it makes sense in explaining why I'm such a night person.

And now I'm wondering... maybe there are other night thingies I should explore since there's a big prossibility I would excel in them. I wonder what I should do next.....

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm....... hmmmmm..... .... hmm................Z zzzZzZZzzzzzzZZ

I think I shoud try to get some sleep now! I can hardly open my eyes...

Travelling Day

Yesterday was a busy day ... travelling from Bkt Antarabangsa to Pandan Indah to KL to Jelatek and back to Bkt Antarabangsa... And all the while enjoying the travelling without the stress of being the driver yourself!

But ... it did take a long time to get anywhere. Nevertheless, it has been a very good day indeed!

• wake up... decided in the mood to go to mpaj to try settle overdue assessment rate.
  
• call cab...took a while.. finally got one. i went downstairs to wait as the operator asked me to.. but took the driver a while to get here.. so I went for a walk to the guard house. that was my first exercise in a few weeks...
• arrived at mpaj pandan indah smoothly (in an nicely aircond car) ... cost me RM10 (incl. a bit of tip to the nice taxi driver!)
• went to settle the overdue... long story but they need a copy of s&p but the girl there was not willing to do photocopy... mesin rosak! whatever...
• once done at mpaj.. ask the 'kaunter pertanyaan' how to catch a bus to go to KL.
• took kl rapid bus... comfortable and cost me RM1.50 (when i asked the driver how much, he went to explain that it used to be RM1.20 but just recently increased!)... not bad lah.. i still can afford that.
• went from pandan indah to pandan jaya to tmn maluri to jln connaught to penjara pudu to bkt bintang to jln raja chulan to kotaraya to bangkok bank. i could sleep soundly on the bus if i wanted to!
  
• get off the bus and walked to another bus stop to take the bus to ampang park. along the way bought star newspaper and a bottle of F&N orange. it was a hot day, so never mind the sugar/calories (i don't know how to count calory anyway)
  
• took a metrobus to ampang point..cost me RM0.90. crossed the lrt station to go to citibank ... pay credit card bill then to alliance bank to pay another credit card..then walked across the pedestrian bridge to go to megan phileo to see the lawyer... (can't believe i still have to deal with them after more than 2 years of buying the condo!)
• then walked back to ampang park to have ice jelly... yummy.. the day felt hotter than before the F&N orange drink. YUMMY! YUMMY! YUMMY!
  
• took the lrt to jelatek...pay via touch n go card.. not sure how much.
• waited for a taxi... driver looked decent but had reservation. drove to bkt antarabangsa.. had to give him direction. meter said RM6.50.. paid him RM7.00 (tips RM0.50) but then he told me he hasn't calibrated his meter.. it should be ... well.. he click on the meter and the number came out was RM8.00.... oh well... trust your first instinct!
• got home got headache took a nap... was in foul mood for other reason.
  
• nephew called .... barked at him (actually would bark at anybody that call during that time)
• got up .. hungry.. cook rice and some canned fried fish.. yucks but edible!
• do nothing after that except watching tv and surf till late!
• go to bed... feeling like i've accomplished a lot!

A bliss... contenment from small things life has to offer!