A few days ago, looking down at my dirty hands and fingernails while gardening at my sister's house, I wondered... whether I should go back to nature, getting my hands dirty, and start breathing a fresher air, away from this polluted city.
As I was looking down at my dirty hands, some thoughts went through my minds...
..... I don't mind getting my hands dirty with soils/dirts. In fact, most times I enjoy it.
..... I love watching something grow, especially plants. It amazes me everytime and give great pleasure in knowing that I have something to do with it.
..... I would love to feel contentment, and I haven't feel that from any job I had in the past. And I wonder why!
..... I would love to go back to nature, live a simple life in a quiet place... me, myself and I (hopefully then I would have less reasons to feel bitter about other people). I think my cat too would love the quiet life with me.
..... Maybe I should just give up on expecting to find that perfect job working for somebody (.. anybody).
I feel I should give that life a try! And I am still thinking... and thinking... and thinking... and I still haven't reached any conclusion.
3 comments:
No wallowing remember...
Just do what you feel you need to do. But remember that you'd have to do it with passion (well at least some amount). And that it's always a balance of work and play ... at least 1 area has to excite you a little.
Then again, who says one can't play in the dirt in the city? Isn't that what the social elite are doing?
You seem to echo my thoughts everytime. I pun feel like getting away from the city. You will never know until you try.
TTG - maybe, but doesn't have to be!!! *wink*
Jellybean - I'm in trouble! The only thing I can do with passion is doing nothing at all!!! I just love it too much to even complain about feeling bored from not having to go to work. So how lah??
Nekbat - maybe because we are sort of in the same situation! Anyway, I'm giving myself another few months (so that I can continue to do nothing... heh heh heh)
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